So I’m officially 9 months pregnant (and on the last day of my 36th week)! Usually I’m excited about all these milestones, you know, each month that passes, and logically I still am. But the hormonal delights I’ve been waiting for all pregnancy have arrived in a large wheelbarrow today and I’m in a mood. I’ve cried basically all day over a variety of nonsense, if you would like me to paint you a vivid picture of my day (even if you don’t want me to) I will below.
Things I should do today:
- Pack our hospital bag.
- Take a bath.
- Read something nice.
- Watch something nice.
- Do my Hypnobabies exercises.
- Use my Epi-No.
- Watch Brian set up the bassinet.
- Figure out my breast-pump and clean it if need be.
- Play video games.
- Do anything fun and relaxing.
- Absorb some sunshine.
What I did instead:
- Drop 12 things in a row then cry and get frustrated I couldn’t pick them up because I’m basically a T-rex now with useless arms.
- Try to saw through a wooden dowel with scissors (for hours) and cry when I couldn’t.
- Watch the worst garbage of all time.
- Cry because sitting in our recliner while painting on my computer is no longer possible, I can’t bend that way.
- Sit on the floor to cut some weaving strings, get stuck, cry for 10 minutes calling for Brian before scooting myself to a chair and pulling myself up.
- Cry for no reason.
- Cry thinking about holding my baby.
- Read nonsense and baby boards online all day losing all semblance of a human soul.
- Cry about pelvic pain.
- Cry some more.
If I’ve made pregnancy seem like all unicorns and rainbows, the joke was on both of us. I’ve had basically (before today) no mood swings at all, in fact, less than a single period’s worth of PMS moodiness. Today I made up for all that.
I’m really starting to miss being able to do things easily that I enjoy. I get bored easily (even though I have loads to do) and have no motivation or focus to do anything I actually need or want to. I can’t wait for baby to come so my enormous gourd of a stomach will shrink and allow bending and walking to happen in ways I like (without blinding pelvic pain).
On a more positive note, this week actually was pretty great. Brian and I had a great time downtown at the cutest restaurant, afterwards walking the rail trail as long as my pelvis would allow. We got a new car (yay!) That’s safe and ready for the little one. Brian’s given me loads of back rubs almost every night. He’s a very patient man and I’m so lucky to have him!
How far along? 36 Weeks.
Trimester? 3rd!!! Wooo final phase.
Total weight gain/loss: So far I’ve gained 26 lbs.
Baby size: Bunch of grapes, 18.66 inches from head to toe, 5.73 lbs.
Maternity clothes? The maternity leggings from Motherhood and Target are heavenly. I also love an up-sized normal tank top from Target, they are cheap and so comfortable. I basically live in them, but I did pre-pregnancy too. I also got a couple t-shirt dresses from Target and they are so comfortable.
Stretch marks? Unfortunately genetics have won, I have developed stretchies and they have grown. I was really hoping to escape this fate and religiously greased myself up (and continue to grease) at least 4 times a day with many products, but alas, as I had previously read creams are nonsense. Genetics determine all. There’s no secret preventative tool, if you escape stretchie hell, you’re just genetically blessed (and I hate you lol).
Sleep: I get enough sleep but it’s painful and hard to get momentum to roll over. Something that feels really gross I didn’t think about is that when I roll over, I can feel the baby slide to the side I rolled to, it’s creepy. I tried last night sleeping on my back with the bed sat pretty high up, that was annoying but I didn’t wake up in any pain!
Best moment this week: Getting our new car! It’s clean, it’s so clean. Also it’s safe and smaller because we don’t need a car made to carry 14.
Have you told family and friends: Yes! We announced on Christmas with a surprise reveal which was really fun.
Movement: Baby gently moves her little legs and arms around, she has less room so she can’t do much else. Oh but a fun thing she does do is wriggle her head around between my pelvic bones hitting all the nerves and shooting pains through my body.
Food cravings: No cravings, I just hate my testing days and love my free days.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Just smells as usual, mostly Cashew’s fish whispers or the smell of greasy hair. Also the latest episode of Fargo (mug scene).
Have you started to show yet: Yes! Feeling enormous!!!!! I officially waddle.
Leakage: Yes but not everyday and only while I’m sleeping. I woke up a few times with a few tiny spots on my shirt and was sooo weirded out.
Gender prediction: We are having a lady, confirmed via anatomy scan at 18 weeks. We also did a Sneak Peek blood test at 10 weeks.
Labor Signs: No, but I think I’ve started having a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions. I can’t be sure because they aren’t painful at all, it’s just kind of a weird feeling I get on and off during most nights. My belly gets hard and shaped really gross and it becomes hard to breathe for 3o or so seconds. It feels like she’s in my ribs but she’s not.
Belly Button in or out? I have a full flatty. My inny wasn’t super deep so it’s as “out” as it’s going to get.
Wedding rings on or off? Off, at the end of 34 weeks swelling started. It’s mild but enough that when combined with the humidity here, I just don’t like the feel of my ring anymore. I got an Amazon silicone ring, I don’t like wearing nothing.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy until today, then very moody crying all the time.
Weekly Wisdom: Whatever happens just roll with it. You can’t control what goes on in your womb-sack so just be happy, calm, and hope for the best!
Milestones: I officially had my last 2 week appointment, all will be weekly from now on. I also had my Strep-B test and am waiting for those results. Baby is head down, and my cervix is softening but not open more than a fingertip. 22 days left!